Break - Up

This is a hard post for me to make, can still remember how I felt...to start at the beginning..we were going along what I thought was fine...to go back to the time before Irvin went into service...He worked with Oscar, and althought Oscar was a few years older, they became friends, now Oscar came from a family of 3 Brothers, and 1 Sister, the Sister, almost taking over the role of Mother to the younger siblings when they lost their Mother at a fairly young age...I think Oscar got to depend on Irvin a lot, on the job, and for places to go, before Irvin joined the Marines...A few weeks after Irvin came home, and we were going steady, and were in love, I know that he loved me as I loved him, we were "soulmates", no doubt about that, and I really know that God meant for us to be together, and Thank God, we ARE still together, and still as much in love as then....well, we encluded Oscar and his Brothers on a few of our dates, these dates , we went to the car races in Channelview, which they had about 2 times a month, or something like that..these boys never brought dates, I finally decided that they probably didn't date that much... at first , they were very nice to me, as they knew that Irvin & I were dating, and serious...as time , went on, I could feel the jealousy,...well, I think that Irvin did too, and felt bad about it, but it got to where they wanted him to go with them almost every week end, He or I either one said we were breaking up, but the calls from him got farther apart, and finally stopped...I decided that it was the work of his friends, and I just thought that if he did love me, as I knew in my heart that he did, we would get back together...we wer apart about 3 months, during the summer...one of the girls that I worked with, (she was my age), invited me to the "Y", which was close to her house..on Tuesdays, they had dances..so, after much thought, I went, and enjoyed the music and meeting people and dancing, it was a very nice place, and older people were there to see that nothing happened that shouldn't happen, no drinking, only coffee, and soft drinks...I went out with one of the boys I met there, a very nice person, we went to a college  football game in Houston, and at the time, My grandmother(my Mother's, Mother was visiting, and she was very fond of Irvin, and she told me"I am going to tell him you went out with another boy", she really didn't understand me doing that, ...well I went to about 3 or 4 of the dances with Betty Ann, and by the way, she met a boy there, that she later married...I went out with another boy , I met there, and poor boy, I called him Irvin the whole time, that we were on that date, I kept telling him , I was sorry, andhe was so understanding, in fact, he told me, I bet you two just broke up...and we talked about it..I was SO unhappy those 3 months, a lot of crying, anger at times, and more crying, all the while, I worked every day, and tried to "lose " myself in work, and coming home, day after day..It was a LONG summer, and as it was going into fall, I  thought, well, I guess it is over, no word from him..and I sort of tried to go on and make the best of it, still crying every day, in private...his Mother brought me a Birthday present on my Birthday, I knew she loved me, and wanted everything to work out, she told me "don't give up on him, please", so I had new hope, and waited...then one day, she called, and asked me to come over, and as my father had got a new car, Bless his heart, our old car was so old, and very worn out, I had told my Father I would help him make the payments on a car, so he told me, well, we will have part ownership in the car..At the time, I had not learned to drive, so, he would take me every evening out to teach me...Bless his heart, he was such a sweet man, and he stayed with it , teaching me the right way to drive...well, I drove over to Irvin's house, actually, my first solo drive, ...I was feeling very shakey when I got there...just a few blocks to drive, but seemed like miles...walked in , and he was there, asking who's car is that, and it was as tho nothing had happened, and we just fell back into the way , it was, 3 months earlier.. so happy to be together again, and nothing was said about what we had both been through, but later learned, he was as unhappy as I was...after all , LOVE WON OUT.